Guys. I’m gonna be honest here.
I am OVER this.
I am over living in a parking lot.
I’m over it being gray and rainy and cold.
I’m over taking showers in a lime green bathroom, under florescent lights.
I’m over this last semester of college.
I’m over homework, and group projects, and going to class sporadically throughout the week.
I’m over not having any money, and not being able to afford little luxuries from time to time.
I’m over the feeling of barely making it.
I’m over it.
These last few days have been shit. I accidentally ran into a pillar in the school parking garage (TWICE) and I fucked up my mirror to the point where I have to pay $300 to get it fixed. I have been working on my taxes because I procrastinate beyond belief, and it looks like I’m going to have to pay the government money, which sucks. I’m worrying that I’m annoying my friends by my incessant need to be around them (extroverts you feel me?).
And honestly, all I want is to lay in bed. All day. In an air conditioned home. With wifi. And snacks.
So that’s where I’m at today in this wildly unglamorous life of mine. I’m fucking sick of the parking lot and I want to get a move on already.
BUT, here’s the optimistic resolution you were all looking for: I know it’s going to get better. I know that in 39 days, I’ll graduate from college, and then I’ll be starting on my grand adventure out to California, where I’ll be living out my dream of becoming a whitewater rafting guide. I know that the money will come, and that I have been blessed with parents who have continually helped me out through every sticky situation I’ve found myself in. I know that the sun will come out and the temperature will turn up. I know that I’m not going to feel like this forever.
But today it sucks. And I’m over it.